A Gentle Reminder that America was Founded by What Biden Calls "Terrorists" 
Sunday, July 4, 2021, 04:08 PM
Posted by Administrator

In Congress, July 4, 1776

The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America

When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.--Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.

He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.

He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.

He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.

He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.

He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions on the rights of the people.

He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected; whereby the Legislative powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the mean time exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.

He has endeavoured to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migrations hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.

He has obstructed the Administration of Justice, by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary powers.

He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone, for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment of their salaries.

He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harrass our people, and eat out their substance.

He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislatures.

He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil power.

He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their Acts of pretended Legislation:

For Quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:

For protecting them, by a mock Trial, from punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:

For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:

For imposing Taxes on us without our Consent:

For depriving us in many cases, of the benefits of Trial by Jury:

For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offences

For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighbouring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies:

For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws, and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Governments:

For suspending our own Legislatures, and declaring themselves invested with power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.

He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.

He has plundered our seas, ravaged our Coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.

He is at this time transporting large Armies of foreign Mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolation and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.

He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.

He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavoured to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages, whose known rule of warfare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions.

In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people.

Nor have We been wanting in attentions to our Brittish brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which, would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.

We, therefore, the Representatives of the united States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name, and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States; that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor.
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The Baffled Experts 
Friday, July 2, 2021, 04:15 PM - General
Posted by Administrator

"Experts are baffled by...."

How often have you heard that one?

Today, it's about the coronavirus, and how people who "have allergies" are less susceptible to the effects of the virus.

This time, the Russians are baffled by the fact that people who have seasonal and other allergies are less likely to be infected by the coronavirus.

Well, Mr. "Scientist", allow me to explain it to you so that you can understand, since you don't seem to have learned a goddamn thing in all that schooling your country put you through. You see, those people don't suffer from allergies, they have an immune system that actually protects them. Everyone is exposed to the same thing in the environment. That some people react to those things does not mean those people are "allergic." It means that those people's body actively protects them from the toxins in their environment. That other people do not react the same means that their immune systems don't seem to mind the toxins, and let them into the body.

People who experience symptoms of seasonal allergies are not diseased, they are healthy. And healthy people don't get sick from a simple coronavirus nor any other type of strictly respiratory virus, because a healthy person is one with a healthy immune system.

You cannot GET sick. You can only BE sick because you damaged your immune system.

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Told You So 
Wednesday, June 30, 2021, 07:50 AM - General
Posted by Administrator
The pandemic is fake, designed to establish the level of control which can be had and over what peoples while preparing the population for the real act of war against humanity by the inhuman monsters who run modern global society.

The real effort to take control of everything and everyone will be when global warming finally starts to kill people in massive events which will be undeniably linked to global warming.

I have been predicting these catastrophes for years, over a decade actually (I wrote my seminal piece on the matter in 2009). And I even stated that the first symptoms we would see would be massive dieoffs from unusual and unprecedented heave waves caused by the jet stream (see http://disperser.info/reasons.html)

My warnings are finally coming true, manifest in deaths from a heatwave in, of all places, Vancouver, British Columbia!

The reason this happened is simple, and I directly predicted it: the jet stream is stalling, and the stall is happening in a way which affects North America. It is happening because the Arctic is warming faster than the equator. The difference in temperature, and the constant range we are accustomed to, are what drive the jet stream to oscillate and has done son in a consistent and predictable manner for thousands of years. Being driven by the difference in temperature between the pole and equator, the oscillations have drastically changed, causing the jet stream to actually stall, giving us unusual weather such as the tropical storm which went ashore in North Carolina and inland westward across Georgia. Weather usually goes the other way that time of year, and all times of the year actually. The change is because of the jet stream.

Just as the heat wave affecting the northwest of north America is caused by the same jet stream stalling. An air stagnation event, as they have been calling them, is happening. I have experienced them before, but they were about 10% as big as the one happening now; very localized previously, but now quite spread out and vastly more dangerous.

Vancouver is on the pacific coast of north America, meaning it should be cool and moist. It's a rain forest! Yet, people are dying from a heat wave despite the water in the ocean being 14degC presently. This is because there is no jet stream to drive the ocean breeze which keeps the pacific coast so cool and moist north of California.

So, expect more control over your life. Less freedom. More corporate control of every aspect of your life. And expect to not only have to suffer the consequences, but to also take the blame for global warming, despite the fact that only corporations have ever pulled fossil fuels out of the ground and dumped them into the atmosphere, corporations run by the elite, the same elite who are making you take the blame for slavery that they created, ran, and benefited from.

The stupidity of people dying of heat next to a 14degC ocean is quite obviously a sign of just how stupid humans have become under the wise leadership of the elite. And to think, most people are going to blindly follow them into whatever insanity the people who created these disasters in the first place have in their evil selfish minds.


I'll be out here, where they aren't.

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Enrique - Update 
Wednesday, June 30, 2021, 07:42 AM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique has performed a worst case and appears to be headed directly for La Paz. Except, it isn't an organized tropical system of any significant power. It appears to be causing storms to develop on the peninsula ahead of the center of circulation, or the circulation is heavily skewed from top to bottom. It's hard to tell with the resolution of imagery I am left with thanks to the gutting of America's academia of contributors.

I don't expect much. I've been through many tropical systems, including being through the eye of a system much stronger than this (Javier I believe). I expect gusty and variable winds from random directions, thunderstorms, and maybe a bit of a storm surge, but that's about it. Everything will be mild.


I am actually having trouble seeing where the center of circulation of the system is. The center of the clouds forming is south of La Paz and over land. The apparent lower level circulation appears to be over the sea south of San Jose del Cabo, and is what is causing the clouds to form and rain to fall on La Paz. But there is also evidence of circulation east of La Paz in the Sea of Cortez, which is where the NHC says the center of circulation is.

I am keeping an eye on the barometer, which isn't moving so far.
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Enrique - Final Forecast 
Wednesday, June 30, 2021, 03:13 AM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique is presently southeast of La Paz having started across the Sea of Cortez. It is going to come ashore at about Los Barrilles and scoot across in a west northwesterly direction with the center of circulation crossing back into the pacific about due west of La Paz.

There is every possibility the center of rotation could hit the bay of La Paz, which is where I am anchored. This will produce intense winds of varying direction and velocity but no more than 35 knots. It is more likely that interaction with land will disintegrate any remnants of the storm and it's capability to affect La Paz.

The lack of warm enough water, moisture, and calm upper level winds means what's left of Enrique will be an inconvenience at worst.

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Enrique Update 
Tuesday, June 29, 2021, 07:03 PM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique's wind field appears to be sustaining itself. The wind field looks like it could affect La Paz, giving us gusty winds from the NNE at first, then the north. It has begun moving rapidly and I expect it to move through in less than 24 hours. But, I am taking down shadecloth and securing loose items in anticipation of a nice bit of harvesting wind energy.

Prepare for a day of wind and otherwise enough some nice cool and relatively dry weather. For those at anchor, remember the current isn't as strong, but check your ground tackle anyway.
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Enrique - Post Forecast 
Tuesday, June 29, 2021, 05:38 PM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique has just arrived to La Paz, as you can tell by looking out at the clear sky with the band of cumulus clouds stretching north and south over the hills east of town. That is the outer band of what used to be Enrique.

Enrique burned out overnight due to lack of energy to support it's tropical storm nature.

I have learned a great deal from this storm in order to better understand tracking of tropical systems which will vastly improve my ability to more accurately forecast these events. I have already proven I can better predict eastern pacific tropical weather better than the National Hurricane Center.

Enrique is of relatively low pressure due in part to a combination of circumstances surrounding atmospheric conditions related to global climate change; specifically the developing stalling of the jet stream which I expect to realize this summer. These effects are already profoundly affecting tropical weather which is vital because the NHC and NOAA and other forecasters use computer models which cannot consider these novel conditions. As such, the NHC is incapable of prediction of tropical weather with any degree of accuracy, especially as exemplified here by my far more accurate prediction than the NHC forecast, which can be seen here: https://www.nhc.noaa.gov/archive/2021/ENRIQUE_graphics.php?product=5day_cone_no_line

This pressure isn't low enough given the sea surface temperatures in order to suck up moisture from the ocean, which fuels tropical cyclones and turns them into storms. As of now, Enrique is no more than a played out bit of wind circulating in the Sea of Cortez making it difficult for the Baja Ferries to cross and not much else.

I was better able to predict both the path and intensity of the system despite having perhaps 1/10th of the data that the NHC forecasters have available to them. Why? Because I do not have computer models to mislead me from examining what's actually happening and how it will interact. While computers are better at predicting the movements and changes of air masses, the computers can't compensate for novel circumstances.

The fact is, computer models no longer work for predicting weather. Weather forecasting must then be done as it has always been done - without computers.

Enrique is presently in the opening of the Sea of Cortez, exactly where I said it would go as the worst possible circumstances. But the sea is too narrow, the land too dry, the upper level winds too strong, and the sea too cool for the pressure of the system to allow formation of even simple thunderstorms.

Enrique is done, will not affect La Paz except for some beautiful skies and a spectacular sunset.
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Enrique Forecast 5 
Monday, June 28, 2021, 04:51 PM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique has stalled at the 28 degree sea surface temperature (SST) contour and is disintegrating. The energy just isn't there to feed the cyclone and there are no air masses to steer the system so it is just sitting in the opening of the Sea of Cortez using up SST energies.

There is still the possibility that this system could move north as predicted by the NHC, but if the system does move north as they say, it will be a low pressure system and nothing more, no storm, except what forms from rain shadows and which here in La Paz are never really that severe anyway.

It is my guess that the system will burn itself out over the course of today and tonight and begin moving whatever direction the steering patterns will take it, which could be northeast or due west. But where it does is irrelevant to us here in La Paz. All that matters is what is possible to happen here so we can be prepared, and at this point, prepare for some thunderstorms and otherwise a nice pleasant but hot and humid week.

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Enrique Forecast 4 
Monday, June 28, 2021, 03:54 AM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator

Enrique is heading north along the 26 degree contour line. It has a narrow band of sufficient sea surface temperatures to draw from and isn't going to last long whatever happens. It is already interacting both with the cold waters to the west and land to the east. The band does widen and gives some leeway for at least maintaining the system, but its more likely than not that it will burn out before it can give La Paz any significant effects.

I expect, at most, 45knots of wind and about 36 hours of intermittent thunderstorms of varying intensity, and that's if the system goes along the center of the Sea of Cortez and comes over La Paz, the worst case scenario for this system. What is most likely is that the system will burn out within 12 hours so much that it cannot rebuild sufficiently to throw anything at La Paz except some wind and maybe some local thunderstorms of only moderate severity.

Don't be surprised to see the system either veer west or east and quickly fade if the system to the north can uncouple it from the tropical wave.

Enjoy Monday, get ready for some rain and wind, but don't be surprised if we stay dry.

Oh, and there's a link below to the NHC forecast, which I haven't read yet.
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Enrique Forecast 3 
Sunday, June 27, 2021, 10:00 PM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique has slotted itself into the northward flow I was concerned about. There is still some question as to which direction it will go and the range couldn't be higher. There's really no way of knowing exactly what is going to happen, but my thought is that the storm is going to go ahead and start tracking up the Sea of Cortez. It will be interacting with land as it does, which will diminish its strength, and it will be over only 26-27 degree water, so not enough to continue to build, especially in light of upper level winds which will tend to sheer the top of the system westward.

If the storm tracks up the Sea of Cortez, La Paz will be hit, but only by thunderstorms and mild tropical winds as the land between the city and the Sea will sufficiently dampen the worst effects; but this is the scenario to produce the worst effects of the storm, so at worst La Paz is looking at sudden thunderstorms and up to 45knots of wind, mostly from the north and then west as the low pressure system moves by.

However; I believe that it is more likely the system will either head west in a few hours and be torn apart by sheering forces, or it will steer onto land and be torn apart that way. Either way, I believe it is more likely that we will not get any foul weather from this system whatsoever. The pressure here is too high, the sheering forces are too high, and the Sea Surface Temperatures are not high enough.

Enrique will likely miss but could produce stormy conditions as early as Tuesday.
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Enrique Forecast 2 
Sunday, June 27, 2021, 12:10 PM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
I am having to examine details of systems that have influence on steering this system in order to ascertain what is going to happen. My only concern is whether or not the system could affect me. At this point, it does look as though the system is going to steer north, back towards the coast of Mexico.

I base this on the apparent degradation of a system that has upper level winds blowing west southwest where they would normally be blowing the opposite way this time of year. The system to the north northeast appears to be the only thing preventing the system from moving north.

If I had to guess, I would say the system is going to come closest to Guadalajara as it skims or comes along shore and that it and its effects will remain in the Sea of Cortez and along the mainland shore until around Mazatlan, more or less. This highly depends on the waning influence of the system to the northeast and the arm of the jetstream driving it. I no longer have access to my jetstream animations as the website operator died in a car accident last year and I have not yet replaced that resource and thus cannot better predict movements of air masses.

The influence of this system to the northeast is incredibly important. If any of this system's influence remains, it will drive any, or perhaps all, of Enrique's rain bands and influence towards or perhaps even on top of La Paz. This is highly unlikely of course, but a possibility that at this point remains.

I am of course monitoring the movements of these systems and will report back when I know significantly enough more to report. Air pressure is now being monitored also to determine how local weather will be affected by the system. It is presently 1013mmHg on my hydrometer.

For now, it is unlikely but still possible that Enrique will affect La Paz with at minimum heavy thunderstorms and tropical storm force winds.
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Enrique - Forecast 1 
Sunday, June 27, 2021, 05:43 AM - Tropical Weather
Posted by Administrator
Enrique has formed south southeast of Baja in the midst of limited SSTs which support its continued development. Enrique has now stalled as of this posting, and is poised to follow high SSTs either due west or north northeast along the coast.

The current NHC forecast appears to be a consensus of models which show these distinctly different paths. There is little to support movement of the system that way especially considering the SSTs and the fact that the system as stalled at the edge of the 26deg contour.

If the system does head north northwest along the Pacific coast as the NHC forecast suggests, the upper level winds will tear what's left of it apart. The SSTs are very low on this path.


The path will likely take the system due west. There is a great deal of wind sheer and little to support the system if it heads north. West, it can move with the upper level flows and retain some form to allow it to continue to transfer energy from warmer SSTs. Going north, the system would be shredded by strong upper level winds, winds which are actually the jetstream in what I believe are its final throes before it stalls in its oscillation.

SO, the storm won't go the way the NHC says it will go as of this posting and I believe it more likely to go west than north.
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Who are You - How I See People 
Thursday, June 24, 2021, 11:30 AM
Posted by Administrator

I have a rather singular perspective of people, or should I say, my general perspective of people is probably a lot stronger than any individual view I have of any single person I have ever known. That is to say, I mostly see everyone as the same. Mostly because to my credit, I get taken advantage of because I tend to project myself onto others. So while I try to see everyone as I see myself, I end up seeing everyone as other, and that other is in far too many ways identical and always has been.

In short, I see people as the same, and not in a good way. In fact, I hate everyone.

But there is a very good reason for this, and it involves who you are which in my perspective consists of everyone I have ever met and interacted with or observed. Early in my life, almost every person I interacted with in my life bullied or otherwise treated me poorly. I cannot overstate how badly I was treated: I was literally bullied by most people I knew including my own family. I had to run home from school from 2nd through the 5th grade in elementary school because I would get beat up otherwise, and sometimes I didn't escape. I recall at least two occasions when I was surrounded by kids who beat me.

I eventually stopped the bullying by hitting the biggest bully back in 5th grade. It started again when I moved to Oklahoma right after 6th grade, but I quickly turned it around and became popular instead. At least, until I was molested and raped in a youth shelter where my mother had abandoned me for the second time (that I remember...).

But after I suffered brain damage, it started again. Actually, it continued later in my adolescence, I just had better control over my reactions and exposure to it through life choices I had control over. But brain damage, and being trapped in a situation because of my disability, meant that the bullying turned much worse. Even the brain damage was the result of bullying and bullying kept me from at least getting compensation from the landlord as I couldn't find a lawyer to sue for what were obviously injuries the fault of a negligent landlord. I was bullied by the courts even in my attempt to sue on my own.

The bullying is what drove me to leave the USA, and it is bullying that led me to do so on a sailboat, something I had never even considered given my hatred of the ocean until that point.

The bullying in my life has been so bad, and so universal, that it is how I see all people alive today. It is the only safe way for me to interact with people because if I don't assume I will be taken advantage of, I almost always am.

So, my perspective, how I see you, is as a greedy, self interested person who would sooner take anything and everything from me as look at me. I see you as so selfish and self absorbed as to not care about anything but your own immediate pleasure. And the fact that not one single person has answered my public pleas for help in the 17 years I have been trying to deal with brain damage says that my views of you are universal and apply to each and every one of you without exception. The only thing even remotely close has been quite sinister; the offer of conditional help in the name of appearances only. That is, people offering help with strings attached, and only in an effort to show others how good they are, not to actually do something good. Conspicuous, fake charity. No thanks.

I'm not going to apologize for seeing you this way if you are not. The fact is, you stand on the sidelines and do nothing, and that is what makes bullying happen. It doesn't happen in the absence of at least tacit consent. And that makes every single one of you a participant.

I hate you. And that applies to every single person alive today.

What you don't understand is how much I long to make exceptions, lots of exceptions.

Please, someone. Prove me wrong, but not for an audience. Prove to me that I'm not the only human being left on this planet (that uses the internet that is...)
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White People did not Keep Slaves, The Elite did 
Sunday, June 6, 2021, 01:39 PM
Posted by Administrator

The present campaign to shame white people for supposedly supporting slavery simply because they are white is in itself a racist effort, and should be seen for what it is: an attempt to divert attention away from the cause of the problems we are suffering today which is the same as the cause of problems like slavery.

Every white person on earth did not own slaves. And not every slave owner was white. And then there is the slave trade itself; hardly the domain of whites.

There is however a solid connection between those who owned slaves, ran the slave trade, and the elites of today: they are one in the same from humanity’s perspective. The people who traded and kept slaves, and the corporate and other elite of today are not actually human, but psychopaths, people lacking empathy and thus the ability to see the world from anything but their own selfish perspective.

And it is these people who kept and traded in human life when it was acceptable somehow to do so. Were it possible today, these same kind of people would be the ones trading and keeping slaves. Having been made a slave myself, I can confirm that if there are slaves kept and traded today, they are kept and traded by psychopaths.

Guess who is telling us that all white people need to take responsibility for the crimes of the elite of the past. That’s right, the elite of today, the psychoapths of today want you to take the blame for their past crimes! And they are succeeding in actually causing massive and unjust discrimination against white people which is destroying the United States of America from within, especially as the efforts, including so-called Critical Race Theory, reaches into the US Military.

The notion that we everyday people are somehow responsible for the sins and crimes and inhuman behavior of the past is preposterous. But people are letting themselves be convinced and it is becoming true. And those who believe themselves better, the psychopaths who are not even human, are laughing all the way to the central bank.
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Traumatic Memory of Rape 
Saturday, May 29, 2021, 12:43 AM
Posted by Administrator
On the 26th of May, 2021, I began to remember the events of the winter of 1983, when I was raped by my counselor, a man named Francis who worked for Kay County, Oklahoma as a counselor for children at a county run shelter.

After repeated incidents of fondling and kissing me in the office during which time I was hypnotized by Francis, he invited me to his home. I remember being invited into the basement and anally penetrated after being convinced that I would enjoy it. I do not yet recall all of the details of the incident, but have always remembered coming home afterwards and trying to kill myself with my pocket knife, and stabbing my pillow instead, through the Garfield comic I had drawn onto the pillow case with Francis some time prior.

This incident drastically changed my life as it came as I was doing extremely well socially, having become the most popular kid in school. I had even asked the most popular girl in school out, who had said yes. Despite this, because of this incident, I had decided to go ahead and let my mother send me back to live with my father, denying myself any possibility of continuing the efforts of building a social life I never had the opportunity to have living with my father because I was heavily bullied.

I have attempted to report this incident to the Ponca City Police Department, Kay County Sheriffs Department, and Federal Bureau of Investigation, all of whom have ignored or made fun of my report.

I would very much like to sue Kay County, Oklahoma, the Kay County Youth Shelter, and either the man or his estate, for the extreme damage this incident caused me.
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